Daddy,

How are you father :) Oh how i miss you dearly. If i was to have one wish, it would be to be able to spend one more day with you.

I remember the night you left, as a matter of fact, i remember it like i remember the back of my hand. It was a really cold night, and i remember sitting at the dining table when we received the phone call. I remember picking up the phone and a lady asking me for mum. I handed her the phone and from then it was total chaos.

Do you remember when i was still in primary school, and that you use to pick me up once in a while. That use to be my favourite part. I loved knowing that i was able to walk out of my class room and know that you were standing right there waiting for me.

Every time i go to the city and i walk from Central to Market City, i walk past our old shop. I remember sitting in there almost every weekend. I would sit at the back, just out of your way and do my homework. And every time lunch time came around, i would walk over to Market City either with you or one of the Chi's and we'd buy lunch. I'd always tell them to cut whatever i got into halves so that i could give you half. I remember that whoever i went with would always take me to random shops and buy me stickers or little toys or whatever it was that i wanted. Do you remember that one time when one of your customers bought something and then he told you to give me the change cause he could see me working at the back? That day will always stick in my memory. I was never allowed outside of the shop without someone with me, and now, it's not strange for me to go to the City by myself or with a few friends.

I wish you were here to see me graduate. I wish you were here to see my last Flag Day performance. I wish you were here to start my new chapter with me. I wish you were here.

Every time mum talks about you or mentions something about you, i can see the tears hidden behind her eyes slowly crawl out. It breaks her heart to talk about you, because i know how much she misses you.

I remember when you were working on our backyard and i had to get you a beer whenever you wanted. You use to be the one i would do everything with, whilst Jes did it with mum. I was always your little girl, and that, you were so proud of. You use to take us to places and people's houses and when people asked who my father was, you'd say it in the most proudest voice, that you were my father. To this day, whenever i see someone i have not seen in years, i always get told i look like you. I wish you were here so that i could show them that i am in fact daddy's little girl.

I hate knowing that when i wake up each morning, you're not going to be there to give me a hug. I hate knowing that when i go to sleep each night, that you're never going to be there again to tuck me in. I hate knowing that i'm never going to be able to hear your stories of being a refugee again. I hate knowing that i am never going to hear you complain about the friends that i have or that you disapprove of a guy i'm dating or that you hate the fact that i go out too much. I hate knowing that you were the one who bought me my piano, but you're never going to be able to hear me play it again. I hate knowing that all i have left of you are the memories that i have kept close within.

I constantly imagine to myself what life would be like if you were still here. A lot of things would be different. I think i would be an entirely different person and that a lot of the things that i have in life now, would actually not be there. You worked hard to give Jes and i what we had, and that built the foundation for us to build what we have today.

You gave me life, and that i am oh so grateful for. I love you with all my heart, and even though you are now with the angels, you will forever long be held within my heart. I hope that if you could see me today, you'd be very proud of the person i have become. I hope that i have not disappointed you in any way. I promise to take care of mum and that i will always try my best to make her happy.

I love you and i miss you every single day.

With love forever and always,

Your little girl.

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