omg . welphs, got back from camp yesterday arvo. what a weekend :L left on friday morning headed up towards newcastle, camp kanagra :) the trip was alrights. 2 ish hours ? watched the wiggles but then viet was like OMG this is making me sleepy so he decides to turn it off :( TSK ruined my fun ! it was raining that day, so was pretty shit. but then the weather cleared up, so its all goods :)

the view was like omgosh niceeeee :) and i liked the camp, nice place. mann the night games were like ==" covered pretty much head to toe in mud. and like chucked out some of my clothes cause there is like no way i can be bothered to clean it. my pink rabens are like literally brown. no joke. and then like i slept likeee 3 hours on friday night. and thats it . didnt sleep at all on saturday night. dont ask why :L and now im like gahhhh im so tired :L

the trip back. i like tried my best to stay awake cause i didnt want my mum to fall asleep, and what happens. i like talk talk talk and then next thing you know, im dead. and then il wake up for like 2 seconds and then die again. at least nothing happened. got home and slept from like 6 till like 930 today cause mum woke me up and made me go banks with her ==" i was so damn tired man. gahh .

besides camp and renovating, nothing much is new i guess .. hmphs yeaaa

its all too painful, but i have no idea what to do. i wish i could find the words to say, make all this go away. but its never as it seems. one day it seems all good and im loving the feeling, the next day it crashes down and i feel like nothing is right. to hold on hurts, but to let go i think would shatter me into a million pieces. maybe you should just hurt me now, and il eventually be able to build it back up again. just do it baby ..
50 days till taylors
4 sleeps till santa comes :D
and my icreams :(

i dont wanna waste another day, but keeping it inside is killing me (8)
jen