its saturday, the start of our ohso sexy holidays! gosh i am happy its here. its been one hell of a fast term, i swear it just flew past! i remember getting back from america and now its like been 10 weeks already! like wthek bro. currently watching tv, fifty first dates/fantastic four 2. trying to decide which one to watch, so like instead, il just watch both. i love fifty first dates <3 makes me smile everytime. its pretty sad but.
had crazy blackout last night! i was freaken showering and then everything goes bloody black! i was like WTF! JES OPEN THE DOOR SO I CAN SEE ! then had like a sexy ass early night :) felt good. had viet this morning. i swear i never ever ever want another sub in my entire viet life! subs hate me :( and they like make me go mental! she was a CRAZY WOMEN I TELL YOU. CRAZY WOMEN! then the viet dude jigs and it was the funniest thing i have ever seen :L ! had to be there to understand.
currently raining. the rains kinda sad, but i like it. it makes you want to just sit there and cry. that gayass feeling aye. hmphs, went to pray for someone today. i was honestly really scared when i first walked in. she was old and looked very fragile. yea, those places make me sad :( its been a long 7 years. i know i should by now, have learnt to move on, but its just something i could not possibly let go of. i want to just go back in time and change a few things. i want to know what its like. i want .. but i can never have. i want to have that hand there so i can reach out and hold it. have the arms i can jump into when things are not going my way. have the chance to know what its all about. be able to know what ive missed out on all these years. life sucks and there are just those things that you can never possible change, those things that you cant control. but its those things that makes life the way we know it. dah, gay.
im gonna jet, feel like shit now

~jen